A hard mix
I had the camera outside this morning to shoot some of DH's paintings before he frames them up and takes them on the road to a few upcoming art fairs -- actually, he de-framed a couple so there's some re-framing going on. Anyway, the hydrangeas and balloon flower were blooming up a storm right behind me and I trained my lens on them, too.
I played around with this image a bit in Photoshop. I added a layer with another image, applied a mask and used a brush to reveal certain parts, adjusting opacity along the way. Then I duplicated the layer and played around with opacity some more and also changed the mode of the layer to something called Hard Mix.
It's that kind of day today. My sister's cancer has spread, the diagnosis has changed some... layers, masks, brushes, opacity, mode... a hard mix.
I'm pretty much at a loss for words except for ones like shit, damn, fuck, crap, cancer sucks, shit, damn, and fuck again. And I'm a little bit numb. I'm focusing on the little things, simple tasks and right now that is to find something beautiful, find some joy, find something happy -- find a smile -- everyday.